I took a week off from all things word related because I was getting overwhelmed and bogged down. I needed a bit of a break because there was too much spinning in my head. Sometimes, that happens to me. And although I usually try to muscle through and write anyway when things aren’t cooperating, I also know when I need to step away and get a new perspective. That’s why there was nothing posted last week: I didn’t have anything to report. And I wasn’t even going to attempt a flash fic in my state of mind.
But I’m back on track.
I’m still working on Beholden. And the thing I discovered is that a plot point that I thought was crucial didn’t work and so it needed to get changed. That’s why the word count hasn’t grown. The last chapter that I had written needs to be rewritten. I’m fairly certain that I’ve got it all worked out now, so that it will work better with the story as a whole. So I’m working on those changes so that I can start moving forward again. Because, damn do I love Julian. And I want his story to get told.
But that’s also part of why I was bogged down. I’m not going to lie; sometimes it’s really hard for me the change what I’ve written. I get attached to my words, or my plots, and I don’t want to see them change. But I want to write the best story that I can, I want to do the characters justice and have their story be told, so changes must happen.
It just sometimes takes me a bit to work up the courage and the gumption to make those changes. But I have, and I am, and I believe it’s the best thing for the story. Keep an eye on that meter. It’s expected to start growing again soon.