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It’s the Little Things

I’ve got a new chair.

I’ve needed one for a while now.  A long while.  A really long while.  When I get in the writing zone, it’s not uncommon for me to spend hours upon hours with my ass planted in the chair, bad posture and all, writing away.  The only time I get up is when I have to pee.  And the chair I had?  Well, it wasn’t the best of chairs.  My ass would go numb.  My back would start to hurt horrendously.  I have a bad tendency to pull my feet up underneath me, and they would fall completely asleep…and then I’d need to get up because of the numb ass and the back pain and the full bladder, but I couldn’t actually go anywhere because I couldn’t feel my feet.

It was, to say the least, not the most ideal of situations.

But quality costs money, and a lot of stuff is horrendously overpriced anyway, and I kept putting it off in favor of other more necessary things.  Like car repairs and bills and yes, even a weekend away with my sister.  But it was just getting worse, not better, and it was starting to be really difficult for me to keep my bum in the chair and write.  Plus, I now have the new arrangement, the writing nook of awesome, and I wanted to be incredibly productive.  It was time to buck up, get the chair, and suffer with a lack of funds if I had to.

Oh, but there was a sale!  There was a really good sale, and a chair that when I sat in it, felt like heaven.  It cradled my poor body and I just wanted to sit and sit and sit.  I could pull my feet up comfortably.  It supported my back at exactly the right spots.  It was even better than the one I actually went to buy, and just a wee bit cheaper too.  It took me minutes to make my decision.

I bought the chair.

I put it together in about thirty minute and rolled it over and sat and I am so happy.  I can sit for hours with nothing going numb and nothing hurting.  I’m sort of pissed at myself that I waited so long.  I just keep telling myself the time wasn’t right, and it was supposed to be now.  So I could get this chair that feels like it was made for me at a price I could afford.

It seems silly that a little thing like a chair makes all the difference but it does.

Flash Fic Friday

Flash Fic Friday

** This one was a fun one to write.  In fact, it surprised me with some of the bits.  For this week’s challenge we have maid service, an ugly dog, and a big change.  Enjoy!**

The Fairlaine Hotel had been built in the 1860’s.  Its castle-like stone façade had maintained its original beauty and the grounds were painstakingly maintained by an exceedingly excellent staff of groundskeepers.  The interior had been updated on numerous occasions, and the current incarnation had all the amenities of a 5 star hotel while still looking like it belonged to another time.  I managed the whole operations, a coup for someone my age, and I loved every stressful overworked second of it.  I was never completely off duty, though the night manager did take some of the burden from my shoulders.  I very rarely left the property though, because I needed to be on hand to take care of any situation

One of the best things about living in a hotel was the maid service.  I never had to worry about towels, or making the bed.  I never had to vacuum or dust.  My suite of rooms was always neat and tidy.  The guest rooms were always catered to first, but once that had been taken care of, the staff suites were also cleaned.  Usually my rooms were done by the time I managed to make it up there at about eight P.M.  So I was surprised when I walked down the hall and saw the maid cart outside my door, which was propped open.

It all made sense when I walked in.  Leo had only been on staff at the Fairlaine for three weeks, and this was his first shift on his own.  It made sense that it would take him a bit longer to complete his tasks until he really got into the swing of things.  I stood there and watched him work for a moment.  Leo was efficient, though slow, and I had no doubt that he’d eventually handle himself well.  I was pleased with his progress, and with the young man himself.

Until I heard a bark.

Shocked, my gaze shot to the corner where a dog was sitting patiently on a pile of towels.  Not just a dog though.  It had to be the ugliest dog I had ever seen.  It was some sort of mix, but it had gotten the worst off all the traits.  Its ears were long and hairless, its snout somewhere between smooshed in and long and pointy, and its fur was mottled brown, red, white, and gray without any discernable pattern.  It looked like someone had taken a bunch of leftover parts, tossed them into a blender, and this dog was the result.  I would have felt sorry for it, except I shouldn’t have seen it in the first place.

I was going to hate to fire Leo—he had promise—but pets were not allowed in the hotel.  Animals of any kind were banned, unless they were a registered service animal.  This dog, happily panting in the corner, was most certainly not.

I cleared my throat.  Leo startled and jumped, then whirled around, eyes wide.  He colored prettily, even as he started to stammer out an apology.

“Mr. Carpenter, sir!  I’m sorry.  I can explain.”

Oh this I had to hear.  I motioned for him to go on.  Leo took a deep breath. “I was a little slow today because I had to keep running and checking—” he cut himself off with a shake of his head, and then let his head drop low.  “I swear I finished all the guest rooms in a timely manner.”

“Leo,” I said as gently as I could, and waited for him to look up at me.  “First of all, I told you already, you don’t have to call me Mr. Carpenter.  No one does.  Okay?”

He nodded and kept his wide eyes fixed on me.  I smiled to soften the next words.

“But dogs aren’t allowed in the hotel.  Ever.  No exceptions.”  I gave him a stern glare, but as I saw the true sadness creep into his eyes, my “boss” persona faded.  I held open my arms and he came running into them.  I squeezed him tightly and kissed the side of his head.  “Sorry, love.  You knew that when you moved in here with me.  Where in the hell did you get that mutt anyway?”

“Found him,” Leo mumbled into the skin of my neck.  “He was dirty and hungry and obviously it had been awhile since he was loved.  But he’s friendly and so sweet.”

I gave Leo an extra squeeze.  “I’m sorry, but we can’t keep him.”

Leo nodded and pulled away.  He looked up at me with his big blue eyes, and I was ready to promise him the world.  He knew it too, but I had to give him credit for toning it down.  This wasn’t something I could change.  Or could I?

“You know,” I said thoughtfully, my gaze straying to the happy, ugly dog in the corner.  “I bet a lot of our guests would like to bring their pet along.  I bet we’d get twice as many bookings if we were pet friendly.”

“What are you thinking?” Leo asked.  I saw hope light his eyes.

“That there’s that shed by the pond that’s sitting empty.  And it would make a great place for a pet spa and daycare.  That allowing guests to bring their animals would mean higher revenue in the long run.”

Leo nodded.  “Yeah, but…” He paused and glanced at the dog.  “Can you really make that happen?”

“It’d be a big change,” I said absently, my mind working.  “It would take some convincing to get the owners to agree.  I’d have to go to them with a solid plan.  And there would have to be someone who would dedicate themselves to being Animal Guest Liaison.”

Leo caught on fast.  I always knew he was smart.  “I’d be an awesome Animal Guest Liaison.”

“You would,” I agreed.  I pulled him in tight again, and kissed him soundly, only to be interrupted by the dog barking.  I pulled back with a scowl.  “In the meantime, you have to find somewhere else for the dog to stay.”

“Krissy would take him, as long as I didn’t make her keep him indefinitely.”

“Your sister is a gem.”  I nodded, then stepped away.  “Finish your work, take the dog to Krissy’s, and then we’ve got research to do.”

Leo nodded, and moved to do as I directed.  But then he stopped and turned, gracing me with his biggest, most heartfelt smile.  “I love you.  And I love that you would do this for me.”

“It’s not just for you,” I protested.  We both knew it was a lie.  I laughed.  “I love you too, babe.  Get to work.”

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The Series

I’m almost entirely certain I’ve said it before, but it bears repeating.  I love series.  Love them.  I love reading books that follow the same two MCs as their relationship grows and changes, as they face new obstacles and overcome them.  I really love reading books that have different MCs tied together by a town, or friendships, or family, or any other manner of things.  I love getting the story of guys I’ve met before in previous books, and I love that, more often than not, we also get to check in with the previous MCs to know that they are still happy and in love.  So I love reading series, and I will pick up a series if it seems interesting and start reading until I run out of books.  It gives me a great deal of joy.

I love reading them, but I have yet to write one.

(Well, that’s not entirely true, years ago I did write a series, but it’s not very good at all.)

The Something Like series falls into the second category.  They characters are linked by a town and a TV show, but each book features a new set of MCs.  I had the next two books in the series plotted out practically before I finished writing Something Like Hope. But I decided I wouldn’t start writing the following books until I was sure that the first one had a home.

It does, and it’ll be out at the end of June.  And that means that I’ve started work on Something Like Trust.  It was originally book three, but as I was plotting things out and finishing book one, I realized it would work a lot better as book two, timewise.  I have the first chapter written.  I am gung ho and full steam ahead to write more.  That will be my focus for the next couple of months.

And yes, once I’ve got that written and done, I’ll be writing Something Like Love.

Will there be more after that?  Well, that remains to be seen.  There’s a vague idea for maybe a fourth, but I make no promises at this juncture.

What I can promise is that if you read Something Like Hope, you’ll have at least two more books to read afterwards.  Characters that have shown up and made themselves known, and begged for their own story.  Character who I can see clearly and know their path to the HEA.  I’m excited to bring them to you. And I hope you’ll love my guys as much as I do.  Because they’ve wormed their way into my heart and aren’t letting go.

And from a writing standpoint, not letting go of the world means I don’t have to have a mourning period before beginning something new.  Its the same place, and though I’m currently in a different guy’s head, I can still visit with my guys, and know they are doing fine.

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A New Space

I am a creature of habit.  I like it when things go exactly like they are supposed to, and, if I’m honest, having a routine helps me function a bit.  When things change (especially unexpectedly) it can send me into a bit of a tailspin.  It’s usually different if I’m the one instigating the change, but not always.

This past weekend, however, I was the one that changed things up.

Pretty much since I moved into this space, I’ve had my computer set up in the same spot.  It was a comfort to me, I think, to sit down and see the same exact things every time.  And I’ve done a lot of writing with the computer facing that way and it has been good.

But because of a big change in my life, I needed to move things around.  I needed a new space to write.  It took a great deal of furniture moving, and a couple of dedicated hours, but I now have a new space.  The change-up, thus far, is still in the new and exciting stage.  But when I sit down here, it’s already starting to feel familiar.  And some of the habits and desires I had while sitting in that other spot are just plain gone, which is what I needed.

I haven’t written much yet, but I can already feel like it’s going to be a good thing.

I did get some paperwork out of the way, and wrote a flash fic, so I’m moving in the right direction.  And so here in my new space, I’ll break ground on Something Like Trust…the followup to Something Like Hope.

**Something Like Hope will be available at the end of June from Amber Quill Press.

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Fantastic News!

I’ve been holding onto this until I dotted the i’s and crossed the t’s.

Something Like Hope has found a home!

It all went really fast.  After an exorbitant amount of panicking and some long distance hand holding, I was able to hit the send button and submit it for consideration.  And then a relatively short time later, I heard back from Amber Quill Press, offering a contract.

You’ll soon be able to read Aaron and Lucas’ story.  Because it looks like an end of June release.  Yeah, you read that right.  June.  Of this year.

I’m excited and scared and thrilled.  So, you know, usual mix of feelings for me.  I really can’t wait for you guys to read this story.  I’m really proud of it as is, and I know it’ll get even better through the editing process.  It’s a fun story, with characters that wormed their way into my heart and are good and stuck there.

And it’s the first of a series.  😀

Flash Fic Friday

Flash Fic Friday

**Friday is here again, and this week the Admiral said snails, an accident, and the last dance.  I hope this suffices.  Enjoy!**

“It was an accident.  I didn’t mean to!”

I was trying not to be pissed, but it wasn’t working very well.  I was sitting across from Shayne, and I just stared.  I knew he hadn’t meant to knock me over on purpose.  I know he hadn’t seen the giant puddle of muddle rainwater.  But somehow I didn’t think that would have stopped him, even if he had seen it.  And that was why I was really upset.

“It was a snail,” I said, keeping my voice low.  That didn’t stop the anger from creeping in though.  I took a deep breath, let it out slowly, and then lifted my gaze to look him directly in the eye. “A tiny, harmless, innocuous snail.  I couldn’t do anything to you.”

Shayne wrinkled his nose in distaste even as he blushed.  “There were, like, a dozen of them.  And they are so disgusting.  I just—” He shook his head.  “I’m sorry, Jack.  I am.  But I freaked out when I saw them all.”

He was sincere, that much was easy to see.  But I’d been the one who had spent the entire wedding reception sitting in wet pants.  I’d done the best I could to dry the off in the bathroom, but it had done little to help.  As it was, the pants were ruined.  They’d been one of my nicer pairs.  The ones I pulled out when I had to actually dress up at work in order to impress a client.  Perhaps even more than that, they looked fantastic on me.  I had a pretty nice body to begin with, but these pants did really good things for my thighs and ass.  They were a total loss now.

But deep down, I knew he hadn’t meant it.  He’d just reacted.  And if I were completely honest, Shayne’s passion was one of the things that had drawn me to him in the first place.  He reacted to everything with his whole heart and mind, and I absolutely loved that about him. So a few dozen tiny snails in the parking lot grossed him out, and he reacted as only he could.

Another deep breath, and I tried again to let the anger go.  It wasn’t worth it.  And when I caught sight of him staring at me from across the table, his big eyes pleading, I knew I’d forgive him.  He’d been overly solicitous all night, running to the bar whenever I wanted a beer, fetching my food from the buffet, and bringing back the biggest piece of cake that he could find.  He hadn’t complained once about staying so late either, which was a record in and of itself.

The reception was finally winding down.  The brides had left an hour or so ago, off to a sweet little bed and breakfast in the Adirondacks for a week, and the only guests left were us stragglers.  I’d spent most of the nice holding court at my table, entertaining family and friends.  But now, there were only a few dozen people left and the DJ was ready to pack it in for the night.  She announced the last song, and a slow love song started playing.

I looked back across the table at the love of my life, and found myself smiling.  Without saying a word, I held out my hand. Shayne was quick to take it.  I tugged gently, and he stood.  We joined the last few couples on the parquet floor.  I pulled him into my arms, loving the way he fit, and started swaying to the music.

Shayne snuggled in even closer, wrapping one arm around my waist.  I tucked his other hand against my chest, right over my heart.  He smiled, his face lighting, and I found myself returning the grin.  We moved to the sweeping ballad, our bodies in perfect sync.

“I love you Jack,” Shayne breathed, his gaze intense.  “And I’m sorry I accidentally pushed you into a puddle because of the gross snails.”

I couldn’t help the small laugh that escaped.  “I love you too.  And you can make it up to me, once we get home and you take off my pants.”

For just a second, his eyes widened, and then his lids dropped to half-mast as he caught on.  “Can we leave now?”

I pulled him in tighter.  “We have to finish our dance.”

Shayne melted against me, laying his head on my shoulder, and breathing out a sigh.  Somehow I was certain that the last dance was just the beginning

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Cover Reveal

Look!  Look!  Catt Ford made me a pretty!

Dont Wanna Lose Your Love-Build

Blurb:

As it often does, the bad news comes in the middle of the night.
 
 
When attorney Ben Winters’s close friend takes a bad spill and ends up in the hospital, he flies across the country to be there for her. His instant attraction to her brother takes him by surprise. Wanting Zack Anderson is easy; actually having him is a bad idea. While the two connect over concern for Zack’s sister, there are many reasons to fight the attraction brewing between them. Things heat up as Ben’s friend begins to show improvement, but the reasons not to get involved with the younger man remain the same—long distance relationships never work, and Ben doesn’t do one night stands. But there’s one powerful reason to give in. Ben has never wanted anyone more.
 
It’ll be up for individual sale on June 1st–direct from Dreamspinner Press or from your favorite third party seller.  But if you’re of a mind to get an awesome deal on the whole package, and get a story a day for the month of June, head on over to DsP right now and get this year’s Daily Dose.
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On The Verge

So there’s stuff going on!  It’s great!

I’ve got some good news that I’m not quite ready to share yet, but I will be soon.  Hopefully really soon.  But I’m super excited about it and I’m trying to get everything settled before I shout about it.

I’m just about ready to start writing the next book in the trilogy.  You know, it’s funny.  When I wrote Something Like Hope I intended it to be a single title.  I had not thoughts, for once, about writing a series.  It wasn’t going to happen.  Then the Admiral started reading it and told me he wanted another character’s story.  My first reaction was: “But he’s straight!”  And then…oh.  No he’s not and I know how and why.  And that was going to be the second book.  And then the other characters happened, and I realized quickly that no, that’s the third book and there’s another one in between (because the timing works out that way better) and a trilogy was born.  Of which both remaining books are plotted.  So I’m nearly ready to start getting those words on the page.

Even though it’s the Admiral’s fault, I guess I can’t blame him too much.  I’m looking forward to diving in to these other two books and telling these stories as well.  Book number 2, Something Like Trust, is looking to be a long novella.  Book number 3, Something Like Love, will probably be a little shorter, but still in the larger novella range.

And after that?  Well, there’s a couple of things that I have in the pipeline.  A couple of ideas are swimming around, and though they are on hold until I get some books written, they are waiting patiently.  I’m very glad they are.

I’m on the verge.  Of sharing good news, and starting a new WIP.  Of it being a really great writing year.  And of getting a new writing space that is sure to help the creative process even more!

Flash Fic Friday

Flash Fic Friday

**Okay, so this one is different than the normal fics.  For one thing?  It’s not so much a flash as it is a short story in three parts.  For another?  It’s NSFW.  The Admiral wanted firsts; First Kiss, First Time, First Love.  So that’s what you get.  Young love, and a string of firsts.  Enjoy!**

First Kiss

Caleb was the most beautiful boy in the world.  Tall, strong, blond haired and blue eyed, he was the All American ideal of perfect.  He was the senior class president, popular as all hell, and kind and generous too.  He was everything I wanted, and everything I knew I could never have.

I was a lowly junior, a year younger, five inches shorter, and at least twenty pounds heavier.  I all but worshipped him, and he starred in my nightly fantasies.  But I knew that he would never look my way.  At least not the way I wanted him to.  And though I did my best to keep my adoration of him from showing on my face, I was pretty sure he had at least an idea of the way I felt about him.

We were friends, of a sort.  We ran in some of the same circles, and we were both members of the Gay Straight Alliance at our school.  I was definitely gay.  Caleb was bi.  He had both girls and boys fawning all over him, and he was nice to them all.  I had garnered the attention of no one, except the creepy guy in algebra class who sometimes stared at me without blinking.  I was still not sure whether he wanted to kiss me or chain me up in his basement.

I was working hard to get over my crush.  I knew it would never go anywhere.  A person couldn’t help who they were attracted to.  I couldn’t change the fact that Caleb did it for me anymore than I could change that I didn’t do it for him.  I understood that’s how it worked.  It wasn’t easy though, because I genuinely liked the guy on top of wanting to strip him naked and do dirty things with him.

As usual, these thoughts swirled in my brain as I shouldered my bulging backpack and started trudging toward home.  The final bell had rung since it wasn’t Tuesday, the day that the GSA met, I had no after school activities.  The only thing on my agenda was to go home and start my homework.  Fun.

The sound of a car approaching had me squeezing over to the side of the road.  There was no sidewalk here on the tiny street that led out of the back of the school property, which I thought was stupid.  And I hope whatever jackass in the car was going to be polite and not run me into the grass. That happened more often than not.

But the car slowed to a crawl and then was barely moving as it pulled up alongside me.  The whir of the window lowering had me looking, ducking just a bit to see how was inside, and coming face to face with Caleb.

“Hi, Nick,” he said in that low, happy tone he almost always had.  “Need a ride?”

I swallowed hard.  I reminded myself we were sort of friends and that Caleb was just a really nice guy.  That way, I wouldn’t read too much into it.  “Thanks, but I don’t live far.”

For a fraction of a second, a frown marred his pretty face.  “Get in anyway.  Your backpack looks really heavy.”

I contemplated him for a moment, decided he was for real, and opened the door.  “Thanks,” I said as I slid into the seat.  I had to work at fitting my bag between my feet on the floor.  “Teacher conspiracy today to pile on the homework.”

He laughed, deep and hearty.  A warm feeling spread in my stomach at having made him do it.  I grinned.

“I know that feeling,” he said when he calmed down.  “So, where’m I going?”

I gave him directions and he started driving again. It only took me ten minutes to walk home on a bad day, and in a car we were pulling down my street about three minutes later.  We didn’t even have time to start a conversation, let alone for the silence to grow awkward.  I reminded myself again that Caleb was a really nice guy.

“You weren’t kidding,” he said when he pulled into my driveway.

“Yeah.” I tried for a smile.  I was sad that our time was already at an end, and kicking myself for sitting there quietly when I could have been talking to him.  I reached for the handle.  “Thanks again.”

His hand on my arm stopped me, and I turned to look at him.  He was biting his plump bottom lip, and then he released it and took a deep breath.  “Nick, hey listen.  Are you dating anyone?”

I couldn’t stop the snort of disbelief.  “Yeah, right.”  What the hell?  Was he making fun of me?

“I’m serious,” Caleb said, and his tone made me think he was.  “You’re adorable.  And sweet and funny and…” he stopped to blow out a breath.  “Are you?”

Holy shit.  I swallowed hard.  “No.”

“Good.” And then he did the impossible and reached out to cup my cheek.  For a moment he did nothing but stare, and then he lean forward, gently brushing his lips against mine.  I made a noise I couldn’t even describe.  He was kissing me.  Not just a kiss, but my first kiss. His lips were warm and dry, soft against my own, and even better than I imagined.  But just as I was getting over the shock and really getting into it, he pulled back.

“What?” I said, just staring at him but not really focusing.

His thumb brushed against my bottom lip.  “I want more of that.”

“Um, I.  You see—.”  What in the actual hell?

“I’m sorry it took me so long to really see you,” he said softly.

I nodded, sucked in a breath, swallowed convulsively.  I reached for the handle again and took a firm hold of my backpack.  Then I turned and glanced back over my shoulder.  “Want to come in for a while?”

His beautiful smile said it all.

 

First Time

 

Caleb’s parents were gone for the entire weekend.  He was eighteen, so he got to stay home.  We’d been inseparable since that kiss in the car three months ago, and we’d done everything but…well, butt sex.  I knew what he tasted like, how he felt in my hand, the sensation of him coming on my skin as we rubbed off on each other.  But we’d never gone all the way.

I was scared.

I wanted it.  It was all I thought about.  But Caleb had done it before, with both guys and girls, and I was a virgin.  The thought of his cock going in my ass was slightly terrifying.  Caleb had been really good about not pressuring me, but there were times when I knew it was all he wanted.  He even offered to bottom our first time, but I had no interest whatsoever in pitching.  I knew it would feel good, eventually.  I’d read everything I could get my hands on.  And I knew Caleb would be careful and do everything he could to make it good.

But there was no way it wasn’t going to hurt.

Now was the time.  With the weekend looming before us, no parental supervision, and nothing but us and a bed, it was the perfect opportunity.  I knew it was now or never.

I loved Caleb’s skin.  I could spend hours pressed against him, running my fingers over his back and chest. I loved the way he kissed, slow and deep, and it always left me panting, hard and aching.  I couldn’t count the number of times we’d laid here just like this, touching and rubbing until we both came. But it was different tonight, and nerves made my hands shake.

Caleb pulled away for a moment, and then came back with the bottle of lube he’d put on the floor beside the bed.   I swallowed hard, my exhale shaky.  Caleb’s smile turned soft, and he lifted a hand to cup my cheek.

“We don’t have to,” he whispered.  I knew he meant it, but I also heard that slight edge of disappointment.

I shook my head and pulled him tighter to me. “I want to.  I’m just nervous.”

He studied me for a long moment, his blue gaze tracking all over my face, before he nodded and kissed me.  When he pulled away, I was so busy trying to remember how to breathe that I didn’t notice what he was doing until the tip of his finger slid into my ass.  I immediately tensed up, and Caleb went still.

He put his lips against mine. “Breathe,” he murmured.  “Relax for me.”

I did, slowly, matching my breaths to his and focusing on all the other places our bodies touched.  This was Caleb, I trusted him.  Eventually, my muscles unclenched and he slid his finger deeper inside me. Oh.  Okay.  Not bad.  Weird.  Different.  But not bad.

“Okay?”

“Yeah.”  I nodded, panting.  And then he moved that finger, in and out, slow but steady and my entire world lit up.

“Oh fuck!” I breathed out.  Everything was so sensitive, and it still felt weird.  But weird was slowly sliding away in favor of very good.  I wanted him to move faster, to push hard, to do something more.  I wiggled my hips, not knowing what I needed, but needing just the same.

Caleb lifted up far enough to kiss me, his tongue sweeping in and battling with mine.  I clutched at his shoulders, hanging on and kissing him back with everything I had. When I was fully engaged with his lips and tongue, Caleb slid another finger inside me.

I reared back, sucking in a breath.  Ow.  Okay, that burned. Caleb soothed me with soft murmurs and gentle touches of his free hand while he waited for me to relax.

“Nick?”

“Keep going,” I gritted out.  I breathed deeply for a long minute, wiggling a little to try to adjust.  I knew if I could just get passed this, it would start to feel good.  “Move.”

Caleb did, but he kept his gaze fixed firmly on my face.  Once again, the more he touched me and fucked me with his fingers, the better it got.  My cock had wilted, but even though my body was betraying me, I wanted this.  I wanted him inside me.

Caleb kept watching me as he thrust with his fingers, searching, and suddenly I was howling, my balls going tight and my dick suddenly hard.

“Oh fuck!” I yelled out, electric shocks shooting everywhere through my body.  “Oh my god.”

“Good?” he asked, but his smirk was a little smug.

Holy hell, why hadn’t we done this before?  I knew what I had read, but nothing came close to actually feeling what it was like to have my prostate touched.  “Do it again,” I demanded.

He did, his fingers moving faster and occasionally touching that gland and making me jerk and writhe for him.  I was panting, sweaty and desperate, clawing at him by the time he finally pulled his fingers free and smoothed on a condom.  I was hard enough to pound nails.  I wanted to come.

Caleb slid between my thighs and when he put his hands behind my knees and pushed them back toward my chest, I turned a brilliant shade of red.  It was sort of embarrassing, being on display for him, but it helped that he was looking at me like I was the best fucking thing ever.  He adjusted his position, and mine, until he was happy.  And then I felt the pressure of the blunt head of his cock at my asshole.

“Ready?”  He was checking, and I appreciated that.  But I just wanted him in.

“Go slow,” I said anyway, because my nerves were coming back full force.

He nodded, kissed me one more time, and then did as I asked.

“Ow.  Fuck,” I hissed.  “Ow.”

Caleb went still.  “Nick?  Baby?”

I tugged at him, wanting him in even as it hurt.  And it did hurt, less than I thought it would, but there was still pain.  I tried to breathe and remember that part of me could stretch, that he really could fit.  I was fighting the urge to force him out, because I wanted him in so badly.

“Caleb,” I moaned, tugging some more.  “Please.”

It seemed to take forever, but finally he was balls deep in my ass.  My dick was limp, and I was sweating and shaking, but he was inside me.  Caleb’s cock was all the way inside me.  And the longer he stayed there, the less it hurt and the better it felt.

“So fucking tight,” he murmured, the strain of remaining still in every line of his body.  He slowly moved one hand until he could take my cock in his hand.  And even though I’d completely lost my hard on, his touch felt good.  He tugged at me, gently but firmly, and my body started to react.

“Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop.”  Everything felt good now, and I wanted more.

“Won’t,” he promised, and circled his hip.  Oh my fucking God, that felt so good.  With him inside me and my dick hard again, I was suddenly ready to go off.

“Gonna come,” I grunted, a bit surprised.

Caleb started thrusting, and time sped up.  I was about to fucking go off like a rocket, the pain and pleasure all mixing together.  When Caleb started to aim, and found my gland again, I practically screamed as I shot, every muscle in my body locking down.

I came back to awareness a few moments later just as Caleb grunted and pushed his way into me one last time.  He came hard and long and then collapsed on top of me.  I couldn’t make my arms work, so I just turned my head and kissed his forehead.

A few minutes later, he pulled out, and I winced and groaned.  Ouch again.

“You okay?” he asked softly, not looking at me as he pulled off the condom.

I managed to lift an arm and place it on his back.  “Yes.  That was good.”

He turned just enough to peer at me over his shoulder.  I could see the disbelief all over his face.  “Sore?”

“Yeah,” I admitted softly.  My ass felt tender and swollen, and I wasn’t sure my legs were still connected to my body.  I grabbed onto his upper arm and tugged. Caleb moved slowly, until he finally laid down beside me and carefully wrapped me in my arms.

“Thank you,” I whispered.

His head popped up and he looked at me in shock.  “For what?”

“That was good. Really good.”  My voice was still quiet but I didn’t have to force my smile. “Bet it gets even better the more we practice. We should practice a lot.”

A laugh burst out of him, and he pulled me in close and hugged me tight.  “Yeah.  We should.”

I couldn’t keep the grin off my face.

First Love

I didn’t count the days, weeks, and months we’d been together.  I didn’t count the number of times we’s sneaked off to some secluded place to fuck like bunnies.  I didn’t count the touches, the kisses, the dinners out, or when we held hands.  I was counting something much more important.

I was counting the days until Caleb left.

Sure, the college he was headed for was only three hours away.    He had a car that could make the trip with no problem. And he was making plans for weekends home, and how we would spend our breaks.

But everyone said it couldn’t last.  They said that once Caleb got into the joys of college, he wouldn’t have time for a boyfriend stuck in high school.  Caleb insisted it wouldn’t be that way.  He swore that he would be back as often as he could, that we’d still text all the time, and talk every night.  But it was a lot easier to believe all the naysayers than it was to believe Caleb.

I still had four weeks, six days, and eleven hours to go.  And I was determined to make every last second of them count.

When Caleb showed up at me door wearing a grin and my favorite T-shirt, I left the house with him without a thought.  I needed to be with him.  He took my hand immediately, and we meandered through my neighborhood.  We were mostly silent, only sharing a few words here and there.  It was comfortable and peaceful, and I loved our moments like this.  When the park loomed into view, I wasn’t surprised that Caleb headed straight for it.  Dusk was starting to fall, so it was fairly deserted, and it didn’t take us long to find a quiet spot leaning up against a huge maple. Caleb pulled me in between his legs, and I pressed my back to his chest as he wrapped his arms around me.

“You’ve been quiet the last few days,” he said softly.

I didn’t know what to say, so I kept my mouth shut.  I had been.  When we’d been together, I’d purposely kept my mouth shut and did everything I could to soak up his presences.  I sighed and leaned more heavily against him as if I could somehow capture his heat and keep it with me when he was gone.

“Nick?” Caleb prodded gently.  He shifted our positions just enough so that he could look me in the eye.  “Tell me what’s up.”

“I’m going to miss you.” It was all the truth I had for him.

“Oh baby, I’m going to miss you too,” he said fervently.  He squeezed me tight and placed a kiss on my temple.  “But we’ll talk all the time, and see each other whenever we can.”

I nodded.  He believed that.  Now. But I knew things would change.  He’d be busy with school work and new friends, and he’d meet all sorts of good looking people.  Before too long, his high school boyfriend would be a distant memory.

Caleb squinted at me.  “You don’t believe me?”

“It’s not that,” I assured him quietly. “I just think that things are going to change once you get there and…” I trailed off with a shrug.

“Nick,” he said seriously, his gaze piercing.  “I love you.”

“I know.”

He gave me a little shake.  “Hear me.  I am in love you with you.  Bone deep, over the moon, stupid in love with you. That’s not going to change.  So unless you’re breaking up with me—”

“No!”  My interruption was fast and loud.

Caleb smiled.  “Then stop worrying about it. You’re stuck with me because I love you.”

He was so serious, so confident, that the weight I was carrying let go and floated away. He loved me. Completely and for real.

“I love you Caleb.” My response was whispered because I could barely speak around the lump in my throat.

He nodded once.  “Then that’s all that matters.”  He kissed me, deep and slow, and when he pulled back, he gazed into my eyes.  “Just because we’re young doesn’t mean it can’t last.  Just because it’s our first love, doesn’t mean it isn’t our last love too.”

Flash Fic Friday

Special Flash Fic

**In honor of the Admiral’s birthday, a short special fic.  Happy Birthday honey, even if you’re not celebrating :D**

I loved Vegas, but right now the crowds were getting on my last nerve.  The lobby of the casino was packed, and I was just trying to get across the floor.  I wasn’t sure when people had lost all their manners, but I shouldn’t have been surprised.  Fuckers.

Someone knocked into me hard from behind.  I stumbled and nearly fell.  I whirled around, ready to yell at the inconsiderate fucker for not paying attention, but as soon as I caught sight of the man, the words dried up.  He was trying to hide under a ball cap and dark sunglasses, but I knew that face.  Those lips.  That chin.

“Hey, man, I’m sorry,” his voice rumbled.  My knees nearly gave out.  Chris fucking Pine had bumped into me, was talking to me, and I could do nothing but stare.

He reached up and pulled off the glasses, his brilliant blue eyes piercing into me as he studied my face.  “You all right?”

“Yeah,” I croaked out.  I cleared my throat.  “Yes.  You’re Chris Pine.”  I winced.  Fuck a duck, I sounded like an idiot.

His smile was gorgeous as he held out a hand.  “Yeah.  Nice to meet you.”

I took his hand, holding it more than a shake, but he didn’t seem to notice.  I nearly whimpered at the touch of his skin on mine.  But Chris just shook my hand and then pulled away.  I stood there like an idiot when he gave me a wave and left.

I could have kicked myself.  I had the man of my fantasies right in front of me and I did nothing about it.  I should have at least given him my name or tried to draw him into conversation.  In the thousands of scenarios I had daydreamed, it had never gone like that.

“Baby?”

My husband’s voice shocked me out of my reverie, and I looked up into his brown eyes.  He was wearing a concerned expression. I opened my mouth, shut it again, and swallowed hard.

“Chris Pine.”  It was all I could manage to say.

“What?”

“Was here.  Touched me.  Talked to me.”  Goddamn, I was better at words than this.

My husband scowled, and his voice dropped low.  “He was here?”

I nodded.

The scowl got darker.  “If he’d have said the word, you’d have followed him back to his room and let him fuck you.”

I nodded again, because he already knew the truth.  He growled.  Then he took my face in his hands and kissed me.  It was hard and possessive, biting at my lips as his hands cradled my head.  As always, I melted under his touch.  I loved him.  Chris Pine was the fantasy, and yes, I would have cheated on my husband for him.  But this?  This right here was real and every day and amazing.

When we broke for air, he looked down into my eyes, his gaze alight with passion and need.  “How about I take you back to our room and I fuck you instead?  Remind you who you belong to?”

“What if someone hears?”  I couldn’t resist teasing.

He growled again.  “I’ll make an exception this time.”

He took a hold of my elbow and I let him pull me from the lobby.  Best.  Vacation.  Ever.