Vacation Days

I love days off from the day job. I love them even more than I used to, since everything went sideways and has yet to straighten out. I particularly love that my boss was like “take some days before crap really starts flying so that you don’t get shafted.” That’s a good boss right there.

At any rate, I have to work today and tomorrow, but then I have the rest of the week off. Two days on, five days off…that’s how it should always be! LOL.

So the focus issues aside, because I’m very much looking forward to the time off and I don’t want to work, I’m thinking about what I’ll be doing on those days other than lounging in comfy clothes. I have a little reading to do, get ahead of the game. I have much knitting to do, and audio books to listen to. That right there is an awesome thing.

And then there’s writing.

Yeah, I haven’t put many words on the page as far as this new story has gone. I’m in that “second guessing all my choices and should I even write this book” stage of the game. It happens to me every time. Every. Single. Time. I start plotting and thinking and I get all sorts of ideas and then it’s like I slam into a concrete wall. I agonize over every little choice and talk myself out of and into the story about seven dozen times (and that’s not an exaggeration). I irritate the people in my life fretting over simple things. And I’m still firmly in that stage. I have yet to see my way clear.

But I have tentative thoughts of writing on my days off. I often do that with days off, and it seems like I can focus well. But I don’t know yet if I’m ready to get going on the story. Or if I want to work on other things, writing wise. So I don’t want to plan anything and have it fall through…either because of external or internal forces. When that happens, I have a tendency to beat myself up. So I don’t want to set myself up for failure.

If I do, then I do, and that’s great. If I don’t, then that’s okay too. Ultimately, these days are about relaxing and unwinding, which I’m in need of. And if that means I spend some time at my computer putting down words, then all the better.