Flash Fic Friday, Serial

Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 4! What are Devin and Ellis up to? Let’s find out. Enjoy!**

The throat clearing made me jump. I whipped around toward the noise only to see Ellis standing in the doorway. Which given I’d been using the upper room of his shop for more than a week now, wasn’t shocking. The surprise came from the fact that he was holding a plate and a glass. He’d never come up here to eat before.

“I’ll clear out if you want to eat in peace,” I said immediately, setting down the awl, ready to move out of his way.

Ellis’s lip quirked. While I hadn’t seen much of him, I had learned quickly that was his version of a smile. He held out his offerings.

“This is for you.”

I stared, unable to help it. “I’m sorry, what?”

Ellis tutted. “There’s no reason to apologize. Except, perhaps, because you’re terrible at taking care of yourself. Really, your self-preservation is atrocious. How you’re not more than skin and bones…” Ellis shook his head. Then gestured with the glass toward the sofa under the window. “Come sit.”

I followed him because I wasn’t sure what else to do. When he held out the plate, I took it automatically. He set the glass on the small table beside the sofa, and then took a seat next to me. But all I could do is blink at him, thoroughly confused.

“Devin, you need to eat. You know that right? Your brain and body need fuel. And if you don’t eat enough, then you won’t have good control over your wolf side.”

“I know that.” Why was he telling me this? Every shifter knew that.

Ellis quirked an eyebrow, and I was fascinated by that for a second, because I couldn’t get my face to do that. I liked his eyes, because even in his human form, they were the yellow of his animal, and against his tan skin, it looked really cool.

“Do you?” He asked, his voice soft. “Are you sure you know that? Because Trey seems to think you only eat breakfast, because Duncan makes it for you, and dinner, when you sit down with Trey and Asher. The Alpha claims you never bring lunch from the house, and wondered if perhaps I was feeding you during the day. Or if you were going out. He was quite shocked to learn neither were true.”

“I’m busy,” I muttered. I didn’t know I was allowed to bring my own lunch. Okay, the Alpha had said I was welcome to anything in the kitchen, whenever I wanted it, but still. And I had money, but the one and only time I went into the Mercantile, everyone had stared at me. Logically, I knew that it was because I was new. But I still didn’t like it. It stopped me from visiting the restaurant or the café.

With a thoughtful hum, Ellis leaned back. “You do work hard. And that is an admirable trait. But you need to take care of yourself.”

“I’m fine. I eat. I—”

“To that end,” Ellis said, as though I hadn’t even been talking, “I will make sure you’re fed when you’re here during the day. I expect you to take a break and eat. Do you understand me?”

There was something in his tone that shot straight through me and to my core, taking root and sticking there. For a few seconds, I could only stare at him. Ellis did not blink—was it because he was an owl and they didn’t need to blink very often? —and it was a bit unnerving. I broke first, unable to keep eye contact. When I dropped my gaze to my sandwich, Ellis tsked softly.

“Answer me, please.”

My entire body jolted and I mentally cursed it for betraying me. I’d long ago learned to keep my emotions and reactions in check. It was too telling, and that could be used against me. A dominant but kind persona though? That had always been my undoing. And Ellis was displaying that in spades.

“I, uh. Yes. I understand. But really sir, I can take care of myself and you don’t need to feed me.”

He touched me then, a warm, reassuring hand on my arm. My gaze shot to his, and his eyes were kind, but there was also no denying the determination there. He would not be swayed. I had a choice of course. I could refuse and there was little he could do about it. He wasn’t part of the pack exactly, just under the Alpha’s protection. But so was I, and if I went to Trey, he would make sure Ellis respected my boundaries.

But the thing was, I didn’t want to refuse. There was something about this man that made me want to roll over and show him my belly, and my wolf didn’t normally like to do that. Yes, I was a submissive wolf, timid even in my human form, but my wolf side was more protective of me than that, and only showed true submission when I had to. This was something else entirely.

I didn’t know if it was a change in my expression, or maybe my scent, but I saw the moment Ellis realized I would comply with this command. That I was happy to do it. He arched that eyebrow again, then gave a pointed look at my sandwich. I hastened to eat it, and with the first bite, I realized how hungry I was. I devoured it, then downed the glass of iced tea as well.

“Good boy.”

I shivered. At the words? At the tone? Maybe both together. But I’d pleased him, and that warmed me. Ellis took the plate and then held his hand out for the glass. I passed it to him, and he nodded, that hint of a smile graced his lips.

“I’ll be back in a couple of hours with a snack.” It was a statement and he didn’t wait for my agreement before turning and heading for the door.

“You don’t have to—” I began, but at his sharp look over his shoulder, I shut my mouth. Those yellow, unblinking eyes stared me down until I nodded. “Thank you.”

Ellis winked and left the room. When he was gone, I slumped back against the cushions. I was in trouble, and if I didn’t nip this in the bud, he would get ideas. Ideas he shouldn’t get. Ideas I shouldn’t get. Because I wasn’t staying, and in fifty-one weeks, I’d be gone.

Flash Fic Friday, Serial

Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 3! I know it’s a little late today, but I was making some bread. Anyway, let’s check in with Devin, the Carver pack, and finally start moving the romance side of things along. Enjoy!**

Duncan was waiting for me in the alpha’s kitchen, and the warm smile that made his eyes crinkle had me smiling back. Neither the Alpha or Alpha mate were around, but Duncan seemed perfectly at home, as if it were his own. I knew he didn’t live here, because he’d left last night, but it made sense that as pack beta, he’d be comfortable.

“Coffee? There’s creamer in the fridge. If you prefer, there’s orange juice. Or have both.”

“Coffee’s perfect.” I moved toward the pot, but Duncan motioned for me to sit at the table. One of the chairs had the ingrained scent of bear, so I chose another one, feeling weird about sitting in what was clearly Asher’s spot.

Duncan appeared a moment later with a mug of steaming coffee and, even though I hadn’t asked, a little tray with different kinds of sweetener. A few seconds after that, the half and half materialized as well. I smiled my thanks, reaching for it, and Duncan winked.

“Pancakes?”

I straightened up, clearing my throat. “Please don’t go to any trouble for me.”

“It’s not. Trouble that is.” Duncan patted my shoulder and turned back to the stove. “It’s already mixed up, and it’s using Asher’s sourdough discard. He’s been on a kick lately, and if doesn’t get used, then it’ll be wasted. Plus the results are delicious. Let me feed you.”

I nodded then, not wanting his effort and generosity to go to waste. “Thank you.”

With the beta occupied, I let my mind wander. I had always felt cared for in my pack, even if sometimes it was begrudgingly, but I’d been on Carver Pack lands for all of fifteen hours and just the three people I met were warm and welcoming. It was nice, and I hoped it lasted. It could be that they were just being kind because I was new. But I had a feeling that they were always like this. And that, at least, would make my year here comfortable if nothing else.

I was still upset at having had to leave my own, my safety, and venture out. I hoped that once I was able to set up my workspace and fall back into that, I’d feel more settled. It was only a year, which was a drop in the bucket of time, and as long as I had my work to keep me occupied, then I could endure it.

I was surprised when Duncan joined me at the table, two heaping plates of pancakes in hand. He pushed the syrup toward me, and I used it quickly, not at all okay with the beta not going first, but not willing to insult him by questioning his word.

“Eat up,” he said, gesturing with his fork. “When we’re done, I’ll take you over to the Book Cellar and introduce you to Ellis. If you want to get set up today, we can make that happen.”

I wasn’t sure what the correct response was, if I was supposed to insist on it or demure. So I simply said, “Thank you.”

Duncan nodded. “The pack meeting is this Friday, so you’ll have a few days to really settle in. Trey wants you there. The pack as a whole know you’re here, so don’t be surprised if everyone knows who you are. But he wants to do formal introductions. Then we’ll run.”

That sounded terrible. Having to be on display in front of all those strangers? Running with wolves, and probably a bear, that I didn’t know. I tried not to let it show on my face, but I knew there was nothing I could do about my scent. I just hoped it didn’t convey the true nature of my feelings.

“Devin.” Duncan’s voice held a hint of command.

Dammit. It hadn’t worked. I set down my fork and gave the beta my full attention.

His eyes softened. “I promise, everyone here is good people. You’ll be welcome and cared for for as long as you’re with us.”

“Yes, sir.”

He chuckled. “Again, you don’t have to use ‘sir’. We don’t stand on formalities around here. Even Trey would prefer you use his name instead of his title.”

“Okay.”

Duncan sighed, but it sounded more like he was giving in than that he was frustrated with me, so I took it as a win. We ate the rest of the meal in silence. Duncan probably realized I wasn’t big on idyl chitchat. I just wasn’t good at it and it made me uncomfortable.

It didn’t take long for us to finish, and when I passed on seconds, the beta picked up my plate before I could protest. I offered to do the dishes, but he ignored me completely. I could tell by the little smirk he was doing it on purpose, so I sat quietly until he was done. Drying his hands, he turned to me.

“Ready to go? It’s only like a ten-minute walk.”

I stood immediately and waiting for him to walk out of the kitchen before following him to the front hall. I slipped on my shoes and took my light jacket when he handed it to me. It was still cold enough that even wolves could feel it, and since we were staying in our human skins, I would need the protection.

The scenery was pretty at least. With the trees trying to start budding and the grass just coming up, I could definitely see spring in the air. It wasn’t hard to picture just how breathtaking it would be once everything was green again. As we walked, Duncan pointed out the Mercantile, which was a general store that catered to all pack needs, and the restaurant that Trey apparently owned. The beta kept up a constant stream of conversation, talking about Trey’s other location in the nearby town and how the clinic was state of the art, no matter its small size. He talked about the playground we passed, and how Trey was looking into building a school, now that the pack had enough children to support it. I listened with half an ear, trying to absorb information I would need for the next year, but not too worried about the long term.

The Book Cellar was a brick storefront with a large bay window that made it easy to see inside. Instantly, my shoulders relaxed. Books were my happy place, always had been, and just seeing so many brought me comfort. Duncan held the door open for me, and I didn’t even think about the breach in protocol by proceeding him in, too entranced by the sights and smells.

“Ellis!” Duncan’s shout startled me but I quickly tried to school my reaction. Duncan gave me an apologetic smile.

A moment later, a man emerged from the back. He was tall and lanky, with round glasses and light brown hair that kicked out at his temples. For just a second, I was absolutely starstruck. He was just so dang pretty and it took me a moment to realize he wasn’t a wolf. It was a scent I’d never encountered before, but as Duncan and I drew closer to the counter, I started to put some pieces together. Bird? Maybe. Definitely a predator, and he had the distinct scent of feathers and forest I associated with wild birds.

“There’s no need to yell.” Ellis’s voice was soft and smooth, and it slid down my spine in a delicious way. Huh. That was an interesting reaction. But not one to entertain, so I shoved it away.

Duncan laughed. “We were standing here for five whole minutes, and you didn’t come out. Even though you knew we’d be heading over. I figured you were thoroughly involved with whatever you were doing.”

Ellis blinked in a decidedly owlish way. That was it! Owl. That’s what I was scenting. I wondered what kind, but then realized not only did it not matter but it wasn’t any of my business. He was staring right back at me, though, his amber eyes intense, as if he didn’t know what to make of me either.

“This is Devin, who’s visiting here with us for the next year. Devin, Ellis our favorite proprietor of books.”

“Your only, you mean.” Though the words were grumbled, the quirk of Ellis’s lips gave away his true emotion.

“That too,” Duncan agreed with a laugh. “I’ll leave Devin here in your capable hands. Show him around, and when he’s ready to move his things in, just give Asher a call. He’s organized a whole crew.”

I turned wide eyes on Duncan, surprised by that, but he didn’t seem to realize that was anything out of the ordinary. Instead he squeezed my shoulder and looked me in the eye. “That okay with you?”

I was shocked to be asked. “Yes, si—uh, yes. Thank you.”

“Good man,” Duncan praised, and I got the feeling it was more that just about my acquiescence. He gave a quick swipe of his wrist against my throat, then waved to Ellis and headed out. I watched him go for a moment, then turned back to Ellis, who was staring at me with an implacable gaze.

“This way.” Ellis motioned for me to follow, and I did quickly, not wanting him to think I wasn’t appreciative.  

He led me through the back room which was clearly half storage and half his office, if the cluttered desk was anything to go by. The door at the back creaked when he opened it, but he didn’t hesitate to go up the stairs. I was just as quick to follow him, though I made a point of watching my feet on the treads instead of staring at his ass. It was a good one, and if I wasn’t careful, I’d get distracted.

The upstairs space was clearly more storage, but it had all been shoved to one side of the room. When Ellis flicked on the light, I could see a large work table to the left with plenty of free space around it. An old and slightly battered sofa was pushed up against the front windows. The right half of the room boasted some more shelves and many, many boxes.

“Does this suit?”

It took my brain a second to function, impressed with not only the space but the natural light. Back home, my workspace was most of my cramped cottage. I had at least as much, if not more, space here.

“Yes, it’s lovely.”

Ellis cocked his head, studying me, and I was once against struck by how bird-like he was. I swallowed hard, unsure of what to say, not wanting to say something wrong. Ellis took that worry away when he asked, “Trey said you’re a book binder?”

Oh that was a safe topic. “Yes. Repairs, as well. Most of my clients are online, and they ship their books to me, I fix them, and send them back. But sometimes I just find things to repair. People also ship me all sort of books they want rebound and I do custom work as well.”

“That’s excellent.” Ellis offered me a smile for the first time, and I was struck by how that twist of his lips made my stomach lurch. “If you have time for more clients, I have plenty of volumes that need restoration.”

I cleared my throat but I couldn’t contain my eagerness. “Absolutely.”

“Excellent.” Ellis repeated. He fished his phone out of the pocket of his jeans. “Shall I call Asher, then?”

I was nodding before I even registered the response. “Yes, please.”

“Then I will. Welcome to the pack, Devin. I, for one, am very pleased you’re here.”

I flushed, not sure why that was embarrassing, but I managed a smile. With a space like this, and plenty of work to keep me busy, I was pleased as well.

Flash Fic Friday, Serial

Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 2 coming atcha! Familiar faces for sure in this one. (Hi Duncan!) Not sure yet how long this serial will be, but it’s definitely more than a few episodes. Enjoy!**

It was a fourteen hour drive in an uncomfortable rented box truck, Ariadne, my beta—could I even call her that anymore?—assured me once we made it through the small town of Mariot that the Carver pack lands weren’t much further. She’d driven the whole way, and we hadn’t stopped longer than to eat and use the bathroom. I wasn’t sure she wanted to make this journey with me, but the alpha had assigned her the task and so she saw it done.

As far as I understood it, she’d be dropping me off in the hands of my new, and temporary pack, driving the truck to the nearest office, and then flying back home. It was on the tip of my tongue to beg her to stay, even though I knew that was ridiculous. Ariadne and I weren’t particularly close to begin with, and even though she would make sure I was safe, it was done out of duty and nothing more. But I didn’t want to do this, and she was at least familiar.

I knew the instant we made it to pack lands, not just because Ariadne slowed, but because two wolves appeared out of nowhere to sniff at the truck, and us, and then lead the way. Dusk was creeping in, so the trees lining the way looked a bit ominous but the journey was smooth. The road was paved, but the way it wound around led me to think that it had once been more of a path that the pack just improved for their road in.

The alpha house was a large building with wings on either side, not dissimilar to our pack house. It was where the alpha lived, where the pack met, and where wolves could stay if they needed space. What I liked about the this house was that it looked warm. Inviting even. I wasn’t sure if it was because of the lights were on and shone through the windows or because of the clearly used looking furniture on the wide front porch. Or maybe it was the man standing on the steps, his bright smile welcoming.

Ariadne parked, and I waited for her to hop out before I did the same, knowing my role in the pack was to defer to her. I stayed a few steps behind we approached, but surprisingly, the barrel-chested silver haired man walked closer as well. Not the alpha then. Beta?

“Welcome to the Carver pack.” His voice was deep, calming in the timber, and my shoulders relaxed for the first time in days. “My name is Duncan. I’m the beta.”

Ariadne tipped her head and introduced herself, but didn’t introduce me. Which was strange, but I stood stock still, knowing better to interrupt. Ariadne crossed her arms over her chest. “All his things are in the truck. My alpha said you’d have a place for him to set up.”

Duncan stared her down for a long moment, and then turned to me, his expression softening. “Devin? Its wonderful to meet you. I’m here to make sure you get settled comfortably.”

I glanced at Ariadne, but I couldn’t work out what her expression meant, so I offered Duncan nod. “Thank you, sir.”

He waved that away. “No sir. Just Duncan.” He shot a look at Ariadne, but then addressed me directly. “We’ve cleaned out a space here in the garage to store your things tonight. We wouldn’t want to take up any more of the beta’s time.”

I wasn’t surprised when Ariadne bristled. When she spoke, her words were clipped. “Is your alpha not home to greet a visiting wolf?”

“My alpha is indisposed at the moment caring for his mate. Let’s get the truck unloaded and then if Trey is done, he’ll speak with you before you leave.”

Duncan didn’t wait for her agreement, just headed toward the rear of the truck and took it upon himself to raise the door. Ariadne had no choice but to follow, since anything else would break protocol. We were visitors after all, and that meant we followed the hosting pack’s lead.

It didn’t take long to unpack. Even with all my equipment. Most of it was packed very carefully into plastic totes, and though Ariadne didn’t seem to give it the care it deserved, Duncan was very conscientious. When I gave him a smile of thanks, he winked one blue eye at me. Duncan clapped me on the shoulder when we were done.

“You’ll stay here in the pack house for a couple of days, until we can get you settled. Tomorrow, I’ll show you where you can set up. Considering you’re love of books, you’re going to love the Book Cellar.”

I cocked my head to the side. “Who’s that?”

Duncan laughed, his eyes crinkling with mirth. “Not who, what. It’s the bookstore. But Ellis is the seller of said books, and the two of you will probably get on just fine. Now, come in and I’ll show you the kitchen. Ariadne, would you like something before you depart?”

There was something in his tone that I didn’t quite understand but clearly Ariadne did. Though her expression remained impassive, her tone was tense. “I’d like to meet your alpha before I leave my pack member in your care.”

Duncan wasn’t swayed. “My alpha is busy. I speak and act with his authority.”

Ariadne drew herself up, but before she spoke, the door swung open.

“Of course you do.” Trey Carver stood for a moment, backlit by the interior light, before he walked closer, all swagger. But it was clear he had the power and confidence to back it up. I felt it power wash over me like a cool, calming breeze and I took a breath. “No point in a measuring contest, Ariadne. Duncan’s bigger.”

“Alpha Carver—”

“Yeah, I don’t care.” Trey beelined right for me, and I froze. Jonathan had assured me I would be safe here and I believed him. More than that, Duncan showed me that the pack was welcoming, at least on the surface. So while the logical part of my brain said I didn’t have to worry about the alpha’s attention, my hindbrain saw Trey for the predator he was. “Devin.”

“Hello, sir.” My voice was so quiet that if he hadn’t been a wolf, he probably wouldn’t have heard it.

Trey laughed softly, and he brushed the side of my neck with his fingers. “Only my mate calls me sir. Trey is just fine. Duncan, take Devin inside and feed him and Asher, all right?”

I followed Duncan inside, not looking back at Ariadne and Trey. I didn’t want to get in the middle of it, and I was glad I didn’t have to worry about it. That was far above my paygrade.

The house was even better on the inside, smelling of fresh laundry and citrus. Also something else, something decidedly not wolf, and when Duncan nudged me through the kitchen door, and I saw the bearded man standing there, I instantly realized what it was. The alpha’s mate was a bear.

“Oh! Aren’t you the cutest thing! Devin, right? Come in, come in, let me get you something to eat.”

“I’ve got it, Asher.” Duncan directed me toward the table with a hand on my back. “Have a seat and get to know Devin.”

Asher made a face. “I’ll stand, thanks.”

Duncan chuckled. Asher flipped him off. And I couldn’t help the way my brows beetled together.

Asher smiled, motioning me over. “Don’t worry about it. Come sit. Dunc, can you make some sandwiches? Duncan makes the best turkey BLTs you’ve ever had. How does that sound?”

“Uh.” I had to clear my throat. This dynamic, the welcoming attitude and the hint of playfulness, was very confusing. “Good, thank you.”

When I was close enough, Asher reached out, but he didn’t put his hand on me, instead inviting me into his space. I was drawn to him, so I stepped closer and took his hand. The alpha mate’s smile was lovely.

“Good. Now tell me everything. Trey said you’re a bookbinder? I want to know everything about it and about you. We’ll make sure you have the best time here. I promise.”

Another deep chuckle sounded, and we all turned to see the alpha enter the room, his stride easy and measured. “Cub, give Devin a chance to breathe.”

“Yes, sir.”

The breathless quality to Asher’s voice, and the intensity of Trey’s stare on his mate, clued me that there was something else going on here. But I didn’t understand what and it wasn’t my business anyway. Fortunately, before it took up too  much brain time, Trey turned to me.

“Devin, you have my oath that you will be protected and safe here. And I, along with every member of my pack will do whatever is necessary to make sure you are as comfortable and happy as possible.”

It was a promise, backed with Trey’s power as an alpha, and I felt it all the way to my bones. When Asher grabbed Trey’s hand, the power seemed to grow, and for a second it was hard to breathe. But then it settled, smoothing into something comfortable and comforting.

For the first time in a very long time, I smiled a real smile and breathed easy.

Flash Fic Friday, Serial

Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 1! If you’ve read Accepting Submission and Yule Be Naughty, then there are going to be some familiar faces in this serial. If you haven’t, though, don’t worry. While I think that, of course, you should read them, you don’t have to have that info in your noggin for this story to make sense. It’ll just give you a little extra context if you have. So without further ado, enjoy!**

 Wolf packs were insular by nature. It was just how we were, keeping to ourselves, remaining with our own. The human world had different laws and rules, and therefore didn’t always understand us. It was safer for us, on the whole, to remain close to our packs. But because of it, there were some wolves who rarely, if ever, ventured off pack lands.

But that also made it hard for wolves to meet potential mates or have different experiences. Some alpha some time ago had started an exchange program of sorts, especially for wolves in their twenties and early thirties. It was a safe way to see other places and meet other people. Even learn different skills as all wolves contributed to the pack, even if you were only there for a short time. It was common for wolves to go spend time, a year or sometimes two, with another pack, just to expand their horizons. Some wolves did it multiple times.

I’d never done it. Always politely declined when my alpha brought it up. I had zero desire to see the world. Was, in fact, very happy to remain in my tiny cabin, mending and rebinding books. I’d built a thriving online business and was able to contribute financially to the pack. I wasn’t social—which was strange for a wolf, but not unheard of—and pack gatherings and runs were enough to keep my wolf side happy. It was all I needed.

My alpha, on the other hand, disagreed.

I knew the moment my alpha showed up at my door, and saw the shuttered expression on his face, that I wasn’t going to like what he said. But I didn’t hesitate to step back and let him in, bowing my head and offering my neck. He swiped his wrist on my exposed skin, marking me, and then squeezed the back of my neck.

Jonathan was a good alpha. A little traditional, perhaps, but kind and fair. He didn’t understand why I couldn’t just be straight, why I couldn’t just choose to be with women, but he’d never hurt or shunned me, and protected me just like he did everyone else. It was better than I could hope for, since many wolves, and shifters on the whole, believed that heterosexual pairings and the continuation of our species, was the only answer.

“Devin, come sit,” Jonathan said, heading straight for my couch like he owned the place. Technically he did, but he usually respected our spaces. I knew it was serious then and followed along, taking a seat beside him.

Then I remembered my manners. “Can I get you anything to drink?”

I half rose but Jonathan waved me back down. He tried for a smile, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. I tried to calm my rabbiting heart as nerves coiled in my gut. Jonathan slid his hand to the back of my neck and just rested it there. I was able to take a breath.

“It’s time, Devin,” he said, carefully with a gentle squeeze. “You need to go to another pack.”

“Oh, alpha, I’m fine where—”

“No.” And with that word, I knew I didn’t have a choice. It was his right as my alpha, and it was a power I’d given to him by staying with the pack. I knew that. But still, my stomach twisted painfully.

“Alpha.” I turned pleading eyes on him, hoping against hope that he would change his mind. But I knew better.

“You’re mine. You know that.” Jonathan’s voice was gentle. “I don’t understand your sexuality, I don’t get why you chose that. But you’re mine, and I will not have you hurt. I will always do what’s best for you. You know that.”

“Yes, alpha,” I said, voice small. He’d proven it time and again. And even though he still thought it was a choice, when it wasn’t, he at least cared for me and about me, as was his duty.

“It’s time for you to see other things and meet other people. You need to get out and do other things. If I let you stagnate here, that’s not good either. So you’re going to another pack for at least a year.”

“Yes, alpha.” What else could I say? Technically, I could refuse. But then Jonathan would be within his rights to cast me out and then I’d be alone. Unprotected and vulnerable. That wasn’t a good option either.

Jonathan leaned closer, wrapping his arm around me. “I know it’s scary. And I wouldn’t send you just anywhere. It took a long while before I found a place that would be good for you.”

“Thank you.” I took a breath before I was able to ask the next question. “Um, where?”

He smiled then, and it was gentle. “I’m sending you to the Carver pack. Trey’ll take good care of you.”

I’d heard of Trey Carver. When he’d taken a man as a mate, it had caused the gossip mill to start churning. Even more so when it got out his mate was a bear and not a wolf. Despite how spread out wolf packs were, someone always knew someone, and information got around. It was rumored Alpha Carver had several same sex relationships within his pack.

I breathed easier then, knowing at least I didn’t have to worry about that. Not that I thought Jonathan would send me to a homophobic alpha, he was too good for that, but at least I knew my sexuality wouldn’t be a problem. There was something else I needed to be concerned about though.

“Alpha, sir, I have clients that—”

“I know,” Jonathan interrupted. “I’ve made Trey aware and he assures me he’ll have a space for you to work. He’s also provided you with a shipping address so you can temporarily update your site, and any packages you receive here while the transition is happening will be sent to you immediately. He hopes you’ll be willing to teach anyone in his pack who wants to learn.”

“I, oh.” I blinked. No one here had been interested in book restoration, and I couldn’t imagine anyone there would be either. But if they were, I’d happily share my knowledge. It was a dying art and even if no one wanted to make it a profession, I’d still teach anyone interested. “Yes, of course.”

“Good. Start packing and let me know what you need to move your equipment. And don’t dawdle, hm?” He gave me a little shake as he chuckled.

I had to smile because my alpha knew me, and if I accidentally drew out the packing process to delay the inevitable, then, well, who could blame me? But he’d given me an order, and I nodded immediately.

“Good.” He repeated. He leaned down to rub his nose on my neck, so it would be a stronger scenting. I sighed contentedly, because having my alpha do that settled my wolf like nothing else could. Jonathan stood then, and fixed me with another look. “If you want to come back, you will always have a place here. I swear it.”

If? Of course I was coming back. And he knew that. There was no way I’d leave my pack, the comfort that I’d always known. This was temporary, and it would be hard. But as long as I had my books, and Alpha Carver was as good as everyone said, then I’d make it through.

I saw Jonathan to the door and headed for my workroom, my mind already racing with lists of what I needed to do. If I thought of that, and only that, I wouldn’t break down in fear and worry.

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Flash Fic Friday

**Nost So Familiar is out in the world! Have you checked it out yet? It’s an expanded and edited version of the story once here. I have plans to release the next one in a couple of months, and I’m beginning work on book three. But in the meantime, how about a little snippet from Gareth and Owen’s current life? Enjoy!**

I loved Owen. I loved his family. I loved this pack and the life we were creating. I was happy and content and all the good things that, for most of my life, I didn’t really experience. If it weren’t for my brother, my life would have been unbearable. But now things were so damn good it was scary.

Like actually scary. Because I was waiting for something to come and take it all away.

I’d never really thought I was a fatalist, and maybe I hadn’t been before. But after the past few months, I didn’t think anyone could blame me for the change in my thinking. Everything we’d been through would be enough to put anyone on edge.

I was fine when Owen was close. He was my mate and familiar, and that meant he protected and cared for me. And though I knew I was perfectly capable of doing all that for myself, having him nearby gave me extra reassurance. But he’d gone back to work, and though I didn’t begrudge him that at all, it made me a bit twitchy to be alone all day.

Logically, I knew the threats to me were gone. There was no way I was in any sort of danger. And when I buried myself in my own work, ensconced in my workroom with even more protections, I could function just fine. But it was always a relief when Owen got home at the end of the day.

As if my thoughts conjured him—and maybe they had, considering our bonds—Owen stuck his head through the workroom door and gave me a smile. I immediately set down my pestle and mortar and crossed to him. He didn’t hesitate to pull me into his arms. For a minute or two, I just soaked him in, his warmth and his smell, and then kissed him liked he’d been gone for eight days instead of eight hours.

“Hi,” I murmured when I pulled back, smiling at the way he was looking at me. I always felt like the center of his universe when he looked at me like that.

“Hello, there.” He kissed me again, quick and easy. “Ready to go?”

I blinked. “Where we going?”

“Come on.” The mischievous grin could mean any number of things, but since I trusted him completely, I wasn’t worried.

Shoes, coat, scarf, and then we were out the door. He gave me a boost into his pick up, even though I didn’t need it, just because he liked touching my butt. I chuckled as he shut the door and rounded the hood to climb in.

It only took me two minutes to figure out where we were going. There wasn’t much on this side of town, and the only reason we ever came this way was to meet up with the pack at their running grounds. Annalise’s territory was vast and partially encompassed a national forest, but the meeting grounds was a wide open space with a pavilion and plenty of parking.

The pack was already there. At least most of them. I wouldn’t be surprised if a few more filtered in because I saw a few missing cars. It was easy to spot Owen’s parents, talking with the alpha and her husband. My brother was also there, Remy on his shoulder and his every present wolf bodyguard Marco, a silent specter standing behind him.

The real question was why everyone was there. It wasn’t a full moon. Even though shifters were obligated to shift with the full moon, it still called to them and was as good a time as any to have monthly pack meetups. And as far as I was aware, there wasn’t anything to celebrate. No birthdays this week or new pairings. Nothing that we usually got together for. So why?

“Owen?”

He grinned, and shrugged one shoulder. “You’ve had a rough week. You need to get out. So.” He gestured with one hand even as he shut off the engine with the other. “Out.”

I was touched but also a bit embarrassed, and the two emotions warred within me. “There’s no reason to get everyone to drop whatever they’re doing to—”

“Gareth. Get out of the truck.” Owen’s laugh was warm and even though I was still embarrassed, I did as he said.

Annalise’s head snapped up, and she grinned wide as she strode toward us. I hurried to meet her half way, not wanting the alpha to be the one to come to me. That wasn’t right. She immediately pulled me into a tight hug and scented my neck by swiping her wrist a long my skin.

“You all right?” she asked, gaze searching but warm.

“I am,” I assured her. She pinned me with a look and I chuckled. “Mostly. I promise. Just thinky thoughts. There was no need for everyone to go to all this trouble.”

Annalise looked confused, her brow creased. She stared at me for a moment, then turned her attention to Owen. Owen, for his part, threw up his hands like I was just so exasperating, but the twinkle in his eye gave him away.

“This is what pack does, love,” Owen said softly. He draped an arm around my waist, pulling me in. “We take care of each other. You need to get out of your head, and maybe be reminded that we’re all here to look out for one another, hm?”

I let that sink in. I was still getting used to that kind of care, because I hadn’t had much of it for most of my life. Only my brother had stood by my side, and it had been the two of us against the world. But now I also had pack. And I needed to remember that.

“Yeah. Maybe.” I leaned against Owen, letting him take my weight.

Annalise squeezed my shoulder. “Come eat. There’s so much food.”

“Okay. Thanks.”

She turned, but when Owen made to follow her, I stopped him with a hand on his wrist. He turned back, brow lifted.

“I love you. Thanks for this.” I moved my hand to clasp his fingers. “I really did need the reminder.”

Owen kissed me. “I love you. I will always do what you need.”

I poked his shoulder with a grin. “And maybe you needed pack time too?”

“Well, yeah. Maybe. But I get it a lot more than you. We need to do better about that.”

I nodded and led Owen toward the pack. They called greetings, and we waved back, joining the throng. It was still a little overwhelming, but comforting in a way that I never expected. Aeron wandered over and stood close, bumping me with his shoulder. Remy bounced over to make kissy noises and press his beak to my cheek.

Owen wrapped his arms around me when I pushed in close, and I let out a contented sigh. I took it all in, unable to stop the smile, and realized I was exactly where I was meant to be. The path to get here hadn’t been easy but it all culminated in a happily ever after that, until a few months ago, I’d never let myself hope for. But now, with Owen by my side and his pack surrounding us, I could have it. And I couldn’t be happier.

Gareth Evans is on his last chance. If he doesn’t manage to call a familiar this time, then the High Council will strip his magic and he will no longer be a mage. Gareth thinks he’s prepared for the worst, but never expects the wolf shifter. Who just so also happens to be his mate. Owen might be a surprise, but he’s exactly what Gareth needs.

Solidifying their bonds would be a whole lot easier if the High Council wasn’t breathing down their necks. With their bond on the line, Gareth and Owen take a stand. If they want their bond to continue, they have to fight for it. And that’s only the first hurdle the pair must face.

All Gareth wanted was a familiar, but he got so much more in Owen. Their bond is strong, Gareth’s magic is growing, and Owen’s support and care mean everything to Gareth. Just as things seem to be settling, a new threat emerges from an unexpected place. With Owen by his side, Gareth can do what is necessary. Love and a mate were the last things Gareth anticipated, but what started out as not so familiar has become the mage’s everything
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Gareth Evans is on his last chance. If he doesn’t manage to call a familiar this time, then the High Council will strip his magic and he will no longer be a mage. Gareth thinks he’s prepared for the worst, but never expects the wolf shifter. Who just so also happens to be his mate. Owen might be a surprise, but he’s exactly what Gareth needs.

Solidifying their bonds would be a whole lot easier if the High Council wasn’t breathing down their necks. With their bond on the line, Gareth and Owen take a stand. If they want their bond to continue, they have to fight for it. And that’s only the first hurdle the pair must face.

All Gareth wanted was a familiar, but he got so much more in Owen. Their bond is strong, Gareth’s magic is growing, and Owen’s support and care mean everything to Gareth. Just as things seem to be settling, a new threat emerges from an unexpected place. With Owen by his side, Gareth can do what is necessary. Love and a mate were the last things Gareth anticipated, but what started out as not so familiar has become the mage’s everything.

It’s live! If you’ve been waiting for the expanded and edited version of Gareth and Owen’s story, you can get it now. For now, it’s only available on Amazon, but it’s in KU as well, so if you have subscription you can enjoy it for no additional cost.

There’s additional content, more scenes than I put here, and has been cleaned up and polished. And check out that cover by Morningstar Ashley! Isn’t it great? I love it, and I think it perfectly captures Gareth and Owen (in his shifted form obviously). I loved revisiting these guys, and am working on Lane and Walker’s story now, so look for that in the coming months. Hopefully, there will be more to come after, as we have a few characters who want their story told as well. 🙂

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Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 4, finally, for Elliott and Killian and this is the last one. It’s just a beginning for them, but this is where my telling of their story ends. I’ll put up another post on another day explaining some of the things in my life and where things are going for me. But for now, enjoy!**

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Killian was bloody and bruised when he returned. I’d been anxiously waiting, along with most of the pack. He’d gone with several enforcers and representatives of the Shifter Council, intending for a peaceful resolution but expecting the worst. By the look of the alpha, it hadn’t gone easily.

I knew my old alpha was dead. I’d felt it the instant the pack bonds broke. And there was grief in that, but also so much relief. Then it became a waiting game, anticipating Killian’s return. When he got out of the car, and I saw him, panic threatened for just a moment. But he was whole and what few injuries he had would heal quickly once he shifted again.

Everly tried to hold me back, but she couldn’t. I ran to him, throwing myself into his arms, not caring that he was a mess. Not caring that it was my old alpha’s blood, and probably some of his own. I needed to touch, to scent, and I couldn’t explain it. But I didn’t care. Killian was home and I needed.

Killian didn’t hesitate to gather me up, hold me close, and bury his nose against my neck. And that was the moment it hit me, with him holding me so tightly and his scent all I could smell. The reason I’d felt safe with him right from the start, even when I’d been scared, even when I couldn’t talk, even when his actions accidentally caused a trauma response. He was my mate.

I started shaking, but Killian just squeezed me tighter. And even though he was probably hurting and even though other pack members were speaking, asking questions, Killian ignored them all, lifted me so I could wrap my legs around him, and carried me into the house. He didn’t stop, not even a moment’s pause, and headed straight for his bedroom, kicking the door closed behind us. He tried to set me down, but I whimpered, clinging tighter, so he sat on the bed, still holding me.

“Mine,” I whispered, awe and worry coursing through me.

“Yeah.” Killian’s voice was just as soft, but a lot more confident. He brushed my hair back and kissed my temple. “Yeah. I was hoping, if that bastard’s bonds to you were broken, you’d feel it.”

I lifted my head then, so quickly I nearly clipped his chin. But Killian moved his head at the last second. I squinted at him. “Is that why you went after him?”

“Not the only reason.” The truth rang in his words. “But one of them, yeah. He needed to pay for what he did to you, and others. He needed to be stopped. And I would have done it anyway. But the hope for you to feel our bond? That was a big motivator.”

“You didn’t say anything. You didn’t tell me.”

Killian smiled, a soft, affection expression sweeping across his face. “And I wouldn’t have. It was more important that you are safe and cared for. If you never recognized it, we would have kept on as we were. But I’m glad you did. Do.”

“I don’t know how I feel about…everything,” I admitted softly.

“That’s okay. We’ll take our time. Of course we will.” He rubbed my back with a soothing sweeping motion. Then he gave me a cheeky grin. “Do you think you can let go of me long enough for me to get cleaned up?”

My first reaction was to cling more tightly, but then I realized that he really was a mess and probably wanted to wash up pretty badly. I had to talk myself into sliding off him, but after a minute or two, I stood on my own two feet.

“You’ve got blood on you now too.”

I cocked my head, studying him, not quite sure where he was going with that. He’d just said we could take things slowly, but was he suggesting we cleaned up together? That seemed at odds with his previous intent and that wasn’t like Killian.

He stood, crossed to his dresser, and pawed in the drawers for a moment. Then he turned and handed me a shirt and a pair of sweatpants. He nodded his head toward the bathroom.

“Change and wash the blood off. I’ll be right here.”

I did as he asked, nearly tripping over my feet in my haste. It wasn’t so bad because the blood had mostly dried so there wasn’t a ton of transfer to me. My jeans were actually still clean. But since Killian had given me the clothes, I changed as soon as I wiped the blood off my forearms and face. He was only a little bit bigger than me, so while the clothes were baggy, they weren’t falling off. I pulled the drawstring on the pants tight, and emerged a few minutes later.

Killian’s gaze darkened, his pupils blowing wide, as he stared at me. Then he shook his head like he was clearing his thoughts, picked up his own pile of clothes, and headed into the bathroom. A moment later, I heard the shower turn on.

I sat on the edge of his bed, staring at the closed door, and tried to get my brain online. My old alpha was dead. My former pack was, no doubt, disbanded. Those who were innocent were being sent to rehab with other packs. Those who were guilty would be punished. Everly had explained it all to me, how it would go. They no longer had a hold over me. I was safe and cared for and, just possibly, loved. It was a novel concept I couldn’t quite wrap my brain around, even after living with this pack for more than a month. And I had a mate.

Killian walked out,  drying his hair with a towel, while I was still trying to process all the information. He tossed his towel toward the bathroom where it landed on the floor with a plop, and then sat at the end of the bed, got comfortable, then opened his arms.

“Come cuddle?”

I practically dove into his arms. Both of us let out a contented sigh, and then Killian chuckled. “It’s going to take time, and work, but we’ll get where we need to be. And we go at your pace, all right? There’s still a lot you need to work through. But I’m here for you. So is the pack.”

“When I ran, I thought I was going to die,” I said, after a few minutes contemplative silence. Killian squeezed me tighter. “I didn’t think I could trust you, or the pack. I didn’t think I would ever feel safe again.”

“And now?” he whispered.

“Now I know I was meant to be here. And I do. Trust you and feel safe. But I think it’s going to take time to really feel it, down to my bones. And now the whole mate thing. It makes sense but also…” I shrugged as much as I could. “It’s a lot.”

“Yeah. But you’ll be okay.”

I nodded, wanting to believe it so badly that I almost did. Suddenly, I didn’t feel like talking anymore. Or thinking.

“I wanna shift.”

Killian looked down at me, brows raised. “You want to run?”

“No, just…shift and…dog pile.”

If Killian thought it was a weird request, he didn’t show it. He simply stood up and pulled off the clothes he’d just put on. I did the same and then we both changed into our wolf skin. Then Killian hopped up on the bed and curled up, leaving the perfect spot for me. I hesitated, then joined him, fitting myself against him. Killian licked my muzzle, then settled down, and I tucked my head against my paws.

I was warm and safe. The bad man couldn’t get me anymore. And my mate was by
my side, giving me cuddles. I was a long way from healed, but I finally felt like it was possible, that someday, I’d be whole again. That my life would be good. Killian would make sure of it.

 

Flash Fic Friday, Serial

Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 3 comin’ atcha! I know it’s been a minute, again. Stuff, life…you know how it be. Sometimes I get in my own way. But here we are, with the wolves again, and our sweet Elliott who is trying to heal. And the big, strong Alpha who will help him. Enjoy!**

The weird thing was, I found myself seeking out Killian’s company. At first, I ignored it completely. Because of course I couldn’t just hang out with the alpha whenever I wanted to. He was important and necessary. I was coming to actually trust that he had the well being of his pack at the forefront of everything he did—because after a month of seeing it constantly, there was no way to deny it—that didn’t mean I could just follow him around like a puppy.

Weirder still was that, not only did he come find me regularly throughout the day, but he never seemed to mind when we just spent time together. He talked sometimes, and I jotted answers or made gestures. Other times we just existed in the same space.

I liked it. I liked it a lot. I liked the whole pack, in fact, and was beginning to truly feel comfortable. There was a part of me that sill feared the other shoe would drop, and they would reveal their true natures—or worse, kick me out to fend for myself—I was settling and learning to trust.

Sort of.

Wolf shifters were pack animals, and we did best as a group. My human brain had been conditioned long ago not to trust, to fear instead. But my wolf side knew better. At least as far as Killian was concerned. My wolf trusted him in a way it had never trusted before. Those instincts had done everything to keep me safe before, and now they were telling me to accept that what I saw and heard and felt here was true.

It was a work in progress still, but I felt better than I had in probably my whole life. I wasn’t any kind of risk taker, but with Everly’s words from the day before in my head, I went looking for Killian.

“It’s okay to want to be near him,” Everly had said, her eyes kind and her voice soft. “If you’re driven to be at his side, trust that. There’s a reason for it. And I promise you, on Mother Moon, it’s okay.”

It still had taken me more than a day and a whole lot of nerve to do it. And even though I was looking for the alpha, I was walking slowly, cautiously, hoping to come across him without having to actively track him down. Somehow I thought that was better.

Eventually, I caught his scent when the wind shifted and my feet headed in that direction without conscious direction from my brain. Around the back of the pack house, down a path, until I found him sitting by himself. He was stretched out on the ground, his back against one of the log benches someone had placed there long ago, his attention on the pond before him. I stopped a good twenty feet away, as soon as I caught sight of him, suddenly unable to make myself get closer. I had no doubt he knew I was there, though.

“You all right?” He asked eventually, turning just his head to look at me.

“Yeah,” I said, so softly he wouldn’t have been able to hear if he was just human.

He went still. I realized I’d actually spoken, for the first time in far too long, and froze too. A heartbeat passed. Then another.

“Well, come on over,” Killian said, trying his best to act like it wasn’t a big deal. I appreciated that more than I could say. I hadn’t been able to make my voice work in so long, there’d been a part of me that thought it was gone for good.

Once again I moved without thought, until I was suddenly right beside him. He patted the ground next to him and I lowered myself, crossing my legs and tucking my hands in my lap. I couldn’t look at him, but that didn’t seem to faze him. I could feel his gaze on me though.

“It seems like you’re finally settling in,” Killian stated quietly. His voice was a soothing rumble. I’d always noticed that. Other than a few times when he’d raised his voice, he always spoke like that. I wasn’t sure if it was for my benefit or that’s how he always was. Either way, I liked it.

I nodded, then took a breath. But when I couldn’t speak, it wasn’t because my voice was gone again. Instead, I had no idea what to say. Killian reached out a hand, offering it to me without any kind of demand. It took me a minute. Maybe two. Then I slid my hand into his.

Killian let out a pleased little rumble and squeezed gently.  “Elliott, we need to talk about your former pack.”

I liked that he considered me one of his now, that the pack I’d grown up in was the before, my past, and that this pack was my future. But then his words really sank in and fear spiked. I turned wide eyes to him and tried to pull away, but Killian held firm. Strangely, it didn’t feel constrictive, only comforting.

“I haven’t pushed,” he said, almost conversationally, his attention back on the water. “It was more important to get you safe and healthy. But the abuse you suffered—” Killian choked off the words and took a slow, calming breath. That I knew was for my benefit and I appreciated it more than I could express. “They need to be stopped.”

“They’ll hunt you,” I whispered, the words scratching my throat as I forced them out.

“Probably.”

“He’s…a very bad man.” It was inadequate, but it was all I could say. I certainly couldn’t utter my old alpha’s name. Just the thought of it made my insides quake.

“I know.” Killian turned his head and offered me a smile that warmed me. “I won’t be alone and I’ll go through proper channels so justice is served.”

I didn’t believe it. I wasn’t the first one that had gotten free over the years, and nothing had ever happened to change things. I used to think that was because the pack managed to hunt down and kill whoever had escaped. But I’d made it. Surely someone else had too.

“I promise you, no matte what, you will be safe. I won’t ever let anyone hurt you again.” Killian tugged gently and I listed sideways. When he tucked me under his arm, I went willingly. The alpha’s embrace was soothing and protective, warm and comforting, and I trusted my instincts and cuddled in.

Killian dropped a kiss on my head. “I swear, Elliott.”

And the conviction was so strong in his voice, I believed him.

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Flash Fic Friday

**Episode 2 of Killian and Elliott! Because of course you knew where this was going. But poor Elliott, he’s been through it. Once again, content warning for mentions of abuse. Enjoy!**

I knew from experience that kindness could not be trusted. There was always an ulterior motive. But it was hard to remember when everyone I’d met in this pack was just so darn…nice. Everly checked in on me frequently, always wearing a smile and speaking in a gentle voice. Killian was never far, and though the first dozen or so times he’d appeared, he’s startled the crap out of me, I was getting used to it now. There was Milo who cooked for the pack and offered me at least a twenty options before settling on something to make. He didn’t seem to understand that I wasn’t picky in the least. And Raina who made sure I had the softest clothes and warmest blankets. And Bob who was grizzled and cranky, but sat with me in silence, never expecting me to say a word.

I’d met so many people, and even though I couldn’t remember all their names yet—it had only been a week—they simple reintroduced themselves and asked after my well being and reassured me, time and again, that anything I needed would be provided.

And no one seemed to mind that I couldn’t make my voice work.

Everly assured me it wasn’t physical. Yes, I’d been strangled at some point but my wolf healing had corrected that after a few days. It was a mental block of some sort, something none of us understood, but even if I wanted to talk, I just couldn’t.

But even though I communicated non-verbally and with the small pad of paper I carried around all the time now, no one seemed upset or frustrated with me. Everyone displayed infinite patience, even though it took time for conversations. Much longer than if I could just make my damn voice work.

I had all the evidence before me that this was a kind and caring pack. Not a single wolf sported bruises, everyone was well fed, and projected an air of happy. There was no oppressive weight of fear bearing down, suffocating and constricting. But even though it seemed clear this was actually a good pack—I’d heard they existed—I still couldn’t quite believe it. I was still stuck in fight or flight. Mostly flight. I wasn’t any kind of fighter.

That had been beaten out of me long ago.

Killian appeared in the doorway, as he did, but this time I’d heard him coming. I was pretty sure it was on purpose, because of course he hadn’t missed the way I reacted to him. He gave me a smile and stayed on the other side of the room, making sure there was plenty of distance between us like he always did. At first, I’d thought that it was because he couldn’t stand to be near me, but now I wondered if that was something else.

“Hi.”

I waved.

“You doing all right?”

I nodded and involuntarily hunched down a little, burrowing a little tighter into the fuzzy blanket I currently had wrapped around me. It was safe and warm. But I also readjusted it so that I could get my feet free in an instant if I needed to.

That, too, was not missed by Killian.

“You up for a little conversation?”

I shrugged one shoulder, eyeing him warily as he sauntered into the room. He kept his movements slow and easy, telegraphing his intent to sit on the other end of the huge sectional couch. There was still plenty of space between us so I didn’t feel crowded.

Once he was settled, never taking his gaze off me, he let out a tiny sigh, then rubbed a hand over his face. I studied him, trying to parse out his emotions. Usually, I was a good judge at reading the room and being able to adjust my own reactions accordingly. It was harder with Killian because I wanted to trust him and his intent, but I knew better.

“I’m going to start by saying,” he began, his voice gentle, “that you have a place here no matter what, okay? We’re here to help you and keep you safe. We want you well and healthy and whole. I swear to the goddess.”

I eyed him, still wary, but otherwise didn’t react.

“You were in quite a state when we found you at the edge of our territory. Malnourished and horribly abused. It was touch and go there for a bit. Elliott, what were you running from?”

I opened my mouth, then closed it again. I pulled the blanket tighter around my shoulders and slid my feet out from under me.

“Right,” Killian muttered to himself. “Okay, lets try this again. Were you running from your old pack?”

I nodded, slowly and just once, wide eyes never leaving the alpha.

“Did you alpha know this was going on?”

This time my nod was tiny.

The rage that filled Killian’s expression was terrifying, and his voice was guttural when he asked, “Did he do this?”

I started to shake, but at the same time was frozen, unable to move. Suddenly Killian was there, kneeling in front of me, and the only reason I didn’t make a noise was because I knew better. But unlike my previous experiences, Killian didn’t raise a hand or get in my face or scream and yell.

“Elliott, you need to breathe.” His voice was so gentle, so caring, and that was somehow even scarier than if he’d yelled. I knew what to do when someone was yelling. But this what uncharted territory. “Come on, breathe. You’re okay. You’re safe. I swear to you. Breathe.”

Killian suddenly blew in my face, and I involuntarily gasped. Only when it started to recede did I realize the edges of my vision had been going dark. I sucked in another breath, and Killian smiled.

“That’s better. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you. My anger was in no way directed at you. I’ll be more careful. But the thought of an alpha abusing their power just because they can makes me rage. Will you tell me who they are so I can take care of it?”

Panic welled up, but this time in fear for Killian’s safety. I didn’t understand the reaction, but I threw out a hand and gripped his forearm, desperate for him not to move, to not go after the alpha who had abused us so.

Killian went still under my touch, then slowly and carefully, set his hand over mine. He squeezed gently, and though I felt all his strength, I knew I could pull away at any moment and he would let me.

“Okay. Okay. We’ll work on that. Let’s just sit here and breathe, okay?”

I nodded, unconsciously matching my breaths to his. And it wasn’t until quite a while later, when I was once again alone, that I realized I’d been more scared for Killian than of him. And that I touched him, and he me, and nothing bad had happened. There was something about the alpha that called to me, made me feel safe.

My head still didn’t trust it. But my heart was another matter.

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Flash Fic Friday

**After a few week break, we’re back at it. For those interested, the new job is going well! I don’t dread going to work every day. There’s some usual office politics, but for the most part, the work is good, the people are good, and my team lead is of the mindset that humans make mistakes and there aren’t any mistakes that can’t be fixed. It’s refreshing. For the first time in the better part of two decades, I don’t mind my job! But now that I’m settled in and finding a new normal, here’s some story for you. Probably a multiple parter again. Content warning for mentions of abuse. Enjoy!**

Run. RUN. RUN!!

I had to keep moving. I couldn’t stop. If I stopped, they would catch me and that would mean my death. Exhaustion swamped through me, my legs giving out. I had no idea how long or how far I’d run. It didn’t matter. It wasn’t far enough. I pushed myself to my paws and kept moving.

Each step felt like a mile, my body giving out. Every time I stumbled, I got up again, but it took longer and long to find my feet. To get my body to move. My fur was matted with sweat and muck, my paw pads scraped and bruised. Everything hurt. My muscles cramped and seized, too long without nutrition.

I collapsed and I knew, this time, I wasn’t getting up again. My last thought, as the darkness came for me, was at least I’d be dead by the time they found me.

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Low murmurs penetrated the fog in my head, bringing me back to awareness. I couldn’t make out the words, or even who was speaking, but it was the first thing I noticed. The second was the soft sheets and comfortable bed. I couldn’t seem to move my body, and sleep threatened to take me under again. So I just breathed and tried to figure out what was going on.

“There you are,” a melodic voice coaxed gently. “Take your time. You’ve been out of it for two days. We’ve been doing our best to help, but recovery is hard work.”

“Everly, step back. We don’t know—”

“He’s fine.” That melodic voice came closer instead of moving away as the harsher voice instructed. “Aren’t you? You’re not going to hurt anyone. I know it.”

I wasn’t. I would never. That was part of the reason I’d ended up in this situation to begin with. Not that I knew what was going on now. Just that this voice was not one I recognized, and it was actually speaking to me with kindness. Gentleness. That wasn’t something I’d had in a very long time.

I manage to get one eye open, but immediately slammed my lid closed again, the bright light stabbing straight through to my retina. I bit back the whimper that wanted to escaped. I’d learned very young that making distressed noises were a good way to get hit.

“Killian, dim the lights please,” Everly commanded sweetly, and even though my eyes were closed, I could tell when it was done. It took me another minute or so before I could pry first one, then the other, eye open.

My body still wasn’t cooperating, and the fact that I couldn’t move made me panic. My breathing sawed in and out as I desperately tried to get my limbs to work. If I couldn’t move, then I couldn’t protect myself. Not that I was that good at it, but it was better than getting beaten without fighting back.

“Hey, hey. You’re okay.” Everly was suddenly in my line of view, her pink hair a curly fluff around her face. Her eyes were warm and concerned, and while she kept her distance, she didn’t seem afraid. I focused on her face, willing myself to calm. If I could do that, then I could figure out how to get free.

Everly smiled, showing off white teeth and one canine that was a little pointier than the rest. “I promise. You’re okay and we aren’t going to hurt you. I won’t let anyone hurt you. Not after I did so much to patch you up. You were in a right state, do you know that?”

I didn’t answer her. I couldn’t. It was better to stay quiet, to not speak, so my words couldn’t be used against me in the future. I’d learned that lesson young as well. Everly didn’t seem to mind, though, as she kept talking.

“We found you two days ago.” She paused and looked at her watch. “Almost three days now. You were near death, so we brought you immediately back. Can you tell us what happened to you?”

I didn’t move. Didn’t speak. Barely even blinked. After a long few minutes of silence, Everly smiled, but this time it was sad. “Well, it doesn’t matter. Not right now anyway. You’re safe now and we’ll get you feeling all better. I’m going to pop down to the kitchen and get you some broth to sip on now that you’re awake.”

She stood and panic ripped through me at the thought of her leaving. She was the first person who treated me with any kindness in years and even thought I didn’t trust the motivation behind it—conditioning was a powerful thing—I thought I was safer with her around. If she left, there was no telling what would happen.

“It’s all right.” Everly soothed, and even went so far as to smooth some of my hair back from my forehead. I flinched when she reached for me, but she wasn’t deterred. The touch felt nice. I didn’t trust it, but I craved it. I was so starved for touch. “I’ll be right back, I promise. And Killian is going to stay right here and watch over you until I return. Be nice, Kill.”

With that, she left and I turned my head to watch her leave. The panic hadn’t subsided despite her words and in only increased when the big man who must be Killian came closer. But he didn’t yell or hit or hurt. He sat in the chair Everly vacated and offered me a smile.

“I’m Killian, the alpha of this pack. I swear to the goddess, I will protect you now that you’re here.”

There was power in the words. The vow. I felt it deep in my bones, and for the first time in more than a decade I relaxed. Just a tiny bit, just enough to unclench. But I still eyed the alpha warily. He was pretty, there was no doubt about that. With dark hair and dark eyes, and cheekbones sharp enough to cut glass. But I didn’t let that show. I knew better.

“I don’t recognize you, so that means you aren’t from a local pack. Which means you had to come from a distance.” He squinted at me, assessing. “Just how far did you travel to make it to my territory?”

I opened my mouth to tell him I didn’t know, but nothing came out. It was as though my voice was trapped, because even though I wanted to answer him—he was the alpha after all—it didn’t work. I couldn’t speak. I lifted my hands and held them far apart.

“A long way, huh?” Killian relaxed back into the chair, his gaze never leaving me, seemingly unconcerned by the way the chair creaked. “What’s your name?”

I managed a squeak that time, but nothing else. Had I suffered some kind of damage to my throat or vocal chords? I didn’t think so, but I couldn’t remember all that had happened before I escaped. That was probably a good thing. All I knew in that moment though was that my voice didn’t work, and if I couldn’t answer a direct question from the alpha, I was in for a world of hurt.

Before I could hunch in on myself, the alpha’s expression softened. “Do you think you could write it down for me?”

I nodded, because he seemed understanding. He stood and turned, striding across the room, but a moment later he was back with pen and a small pad of paper. I took them when he handed them over, and my hand shook as I tried to hold the pen. I snuck a glance at the alpha, but he didn’t seem upset at my slowness. Even still, I wrote, the letters a little wobbly. It had been a long time since I’d written this name, and longer still since someone had used it. But I gave him the nae I’d been before I was five, the last time anyone had treated me with anything but ill intent.

The alpha peered at the paper when I turned it, then he smiled again. “Elliott. Welcome to the pack. We’ll take care of you.”

I didn’t believe it, but I nodded anyway and then closed my eyes. Once I had my strength back, I could run again.

A life alone was no life for a wolf shifter. But it was better than abuse. And I was never going to be in that position again.